Two moving fish
I am preparing for my first offline group exhibition this year. The year, 2022 has been the time of big and small changes for me personally. First of all, I applied to graduate school. Among them, I received a notification of acceptance from one of the universities. I made my debut as a painter in Germany in 2011, and while drawing and working for over ten years, I had a desire to study and develop further. But because I'm so absorbed in painting, I seem to miss out on opportunities to learn and upgrade formally at school.
But not having had the opportunity to learn for a long time become a strength for me. In the meantime, I am able to built up my identity as a painter that could not be build up through academic education. It allowed me to contemplate with serious humility what was art and what was painting. Meanwhile, it can be a trigger for creating my own style. This gave me confidence and helped me a lot in pondering between what art is and the boundary between art and business and finding answers.
I will write more about graduate school in a later post. The first step I will tell you right now is that I decided to study after thinking about my style and my drawing to some extent. Of course, studying at this time does not mean entering an art school and learning drawing from scratch.
While drawing, I have been thinking deeply what to learn and develop in the future as I build my identity as an artist.
What I discovered is that times are changing a lot. Artistic techniques that could only be learned by entering an art college in the past can now be easily obtained just by watching and following youtube. Of course, there are many more things you can get from college. The rich network and the experience of excellent faculty help them to broaden their artistic field. But if what I personally want to get is a technological advancement, maybe watching YouTube would be more helpful.
It's an infinitive question I've been pondering over and over, and I'll probably wonder about it for the rest of my life. However, I do know for sure that studying from Basic again will not show the same level of performance as I have so far mastered my skills and created my own identity. Rather, when I go back to the formal art education field, I may waste energy by arguing and persuading people who want to change my style. I just decided to fill in the gaps through graduate school.
Before anything else, I think 2022 will be a good year to fill in this shortcoming. In theory, after 10 years of debuting in any field, there is room to get out of a rather narrow perspective and see a general and long-term view of any situation. A lot of things happen in between the painters who have been walking on an unparalleled path for the past ten years. The path in my case was this: At first, like first love, I start with excitement and pure heart. Then I discover that this path requires patience and a long walk. When that happens, I run because I want to walk faster or get there faster than others.
And then sometimes I have to go through trial and error. But there is always a great lesson in failure and trial and error. As I learn these lessons and reflect on them, I find that the best solution is to go back to the beginning. The passion comes back. A tired gait becomes lively. With a sincere heart, I pick up the brush again and paint.
The painting at this time is not something that arouses awe and admiration from others, but is drawn for oneself. I draw to the extent that I understand and am satisfied with myself. When I draw, I get comfort from pictures. In doing so, I come to understand that painting is not just a skill, a discipline, or a tool, but life itself. I become more humble.
And when I get that realization, I find myself no longer impatient. Just as I don't have to say I'm this great in life, I also realize that I don't have to show off that I'm so good at drawing. As I realize that painting is just a window that shows what I want to show, I gradually become more and more free.
In this regard, I chose the material with a heart of starting over. That's one dollar watercolor paint. I hope that everyone can easily access paintings, receive comfort and have fun through paintings. Especially, I would like to express myself freely and free from the pressure of most expensive art materials. The subject of drawing is inspiration from everyday life. Therefore, the daily topic changes every day. In this first offline member exhibition, I plan to hang one of them.
The work submitted for this group exhibition is two fish. Based on oriental yin and yang theory, I drew the movement of red and blue beta fish.
Yin-Yang is the framework of the idea that all things exist based on the understanding of natural phenomena, with the energy of heaven above and the energy of the earth below. Since the shape and basis of all things can be understood as the energy of yin and yang, it was believed that the changing and developing phenomena were also made by the sympathy of the two energies of yin and yang.
As the theory that the other two energy are born, grow, and then die through confrontation and sympathy, they have a certain cycle, complement each other, weaken and dominate, and through mutually complementary actions, everything in the universe changes and order is restored. maintain and evolve.
My art is expressed based on this theory. In other words, I believe that light does not determine the beauty of an object, but that the energy of the object itself determines its beauty. Therefore, the art I pursue is always to explore these energies. If things are inherently beautiful, it is because of their inner energy and not external factors. Therefore, as long as I capture that energy, I will be able to express the beauty of the object well.
Ultimately, if I can express this essential energy, there will be no need for external splendid lights, artificial lights, or dazzling colors. I just need to feel and catch the waves of energy.
Personally, I delighted to have two fish created as part of one of these processes on display at the Mills Pond Gallery in my local area.
The exhibition runs from June 4th to July 10th. You can also see the works of other artists on the website below.
Myungja Anna Koh