If you look at what I've listed, it starts with the best in the world, but it's listed as the best in the world that doesn't have to be.

Buried in a life that is shown like Instagram or SNS, we sometimes get lost.
We are accustomed to the most splendid and most wonderful things, illusioning that what is shown is everything.
And we always want to set a new record, and there are many times when we push ourselves like that.

But just how useful were these records?
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If you obsess over numbers, prize money, or visible records, you might get noticed and famous. After getting attention and attracting people like that, what do you do next? It may seem like a somewhat futile question, but it would be very desirable if these new records were made by one individual's steady efforts and small habits in daily life. However, if you are obsessed with the results you see and forget the essence of what you do, you will quickly get tired. In other words, when we devote ourselves to small things and gain sparkling joy in them, we can find the source of joy that constantly springs up within ourselves as if we were meditating. Cults who exploit this aspiration seem to be in vogue because they want and desire this visible, shiny and quick prescription.

 Recently, I briefly watched “I am God,” a documentary about a pseudo-religion made in Korea. When I lived in Korea, there were many Bible clubs like this in every university. As introduced in the documentary, it was a time of political turmoil and conflict at the time. Many young people often turned to religion as a refuge to confront the dictatorship or adapt to the reality. Taking advantage of these young people's desire to receive justice and comfort, various cults were hiding everywhere and targeting them. In particular, in Korean society, where groups are considered more important than individuals, and group goals and harmony are considered a virtue, I think the activities of these cults are sometimes justified, praised, and supported. So it's even more dangerous. Even if someone raises the question of what is clearly wrong, the individual's opinion is dismissed for a number of reasons. Individual damage is often buried in group interests for many reasons, such as the other person being older, more powerful, with a better social image, or being able to give more benefits.

​And in conclusion, in order not to be harmed by heresy, I think that the legal punishment for cult leaders should be applied more strictly and thoroughly. In particular, in the case of Korean society, there is a tendency to be tolerant of the criminal behavior of these cult leaders. Therefore, the number of such victims is increasing and the degree of damage is also very serious.

 
 I found myself a lot while painting. While drawing, I constantly talked to myself, looked back at myself, and thought about myself. And the painting made me realize how conscious of the outside world, encroached upon, noticed, and feared, lived my life. It seems that it helped me to go beyond the time when I was obviously in error. Heretics make individuals very busy. It keeps individuals busy within the schedule of the collective church. This is to block out individual subjective thoughts. Even if they are not heretics, people with venomous personalities such as energy vampires also make these targets very busy after choosing a target for exploitation. Victims are exploited through a myriad of mental manipulations, such as emotionally threatening them or making them sympathetic. Heresy, the world, and individuals make the world a difficult place to live. What must we do to live with the right mind and beautiful heart in this world? Even if you go to church with this question, you will be taken advantage of by the group called the church. I'd rather recommend setting the table well and painting at home. First of all, they think that they can meet God only when they look inside themselves. How can we hear the voice of the invisible God when we can't even hear the voice inside us? People who have become empty, unable to hear the voice of the inside or the invisible god, will hear the absurd and absurd pseudonymous voice.

 Paul Cézanne, one of my favorite painters, also thought that the beauty of matter was determined from within, so he painted the same place for 35 years to find that essence. And then eventually he figured out the essence himself and was able to get closer to it. It wasn't good art colleges, famous teachers, expensive materials and good studios that made him pursue true art. Could it be that his sincere childlike approach to art and his pure heart that truly loved art enabled him to discover the essence of art in the end? Looking at his life, he was told that he was only painting at the age of 56. But even after that, he had to spend the rest of his life searching for the essence.

In the end, I think religion is like this. Its essence is not in a famous pastor, a fancy church, or a flashy speech. In order to approach the essence, how much do we agonize inside ourselves where others cannot see, refresh our minds purely, explore, ponder, and advance? I think Cézanne's attitude is a necessary virtue in this era when we are focused only on looking dazzling. In that sense, I respect Cézanne very much and try to follow his path.

  It is expected that more and more people will write and test with ChatGPT, a popular AI-based chatbot. I also tried several things. My attempt is to approach from an artistic point of view how different it is from human works. For example, below is a poem my child wrote when she was 5 years old. When our first guinea pig, Pinky and Squash, became our family, she expressed her joy in poetry. The child happily completed a poem in a few minutes, as if singing a song.

 ​And below is a poem about guinea pigs written in seconds by the famous chatbot. The vocabulary and rhyme used in the poem are very perfect, yet it depicts the love and care for the guinea pig and the energy and joy that the little animal gives. If a 5-year-old child writes a poem with a sentence like the one below and submits it, she will definitely win first place and receive a prize.

  ​So below, we asked the chatbot to rewrite the poem from the perspective of a 5-year-old.

My guinea pigs are fluffy and round,
With little feet that tap the ground.
Their noses wiggle and their eyes shine,
They're cuter than any pet of mine!
When I hold them close, they squeak and purr,
And I stroke their fur, soft as a fur.
They love to nibble on carrots and hay,
And run in circles when they want to play.
Sometimes they hide in their cozy bed,
But when they hear me, they pop out their head!
They love to cuddle and snuggle with me,
My guinea pigs are the best pets, you see!
I love my guinea pigs with all my heart,
They're the best friends a girl could start.
I'll take care of them every single day,
​And love them in every single way!

  ​The writing has become simpler, and above all, I can see that the message my child wrote and the intention and message I am trying to convey are similar.

Write a guinea pig poem written by a 5-year-old girl. Their names are Pinky and Squash, and Pinky likes carrots and Squash likes Hey. Girls think they're their mom

As you can see from this part, we also use humor that humans use. Poetry seems to be getting more interesting.

 "Pinky loves carrots, Squash likes hay, And when they see me, they squeak "yay!""

  Very clever. I never mentioned the color and character of Pinky and Squash, but the poems match perfectly. Actually, the color of squash is brown, and pinky has long hair and pinky ears. It's like looking into my life.

 "Pinky has pink fur and Squash is brown,"

 It is an error to say that artificial intelligence has no personal experience and cannot express emotions because it is simple information. As if they were human, they are good at mimicry. So what is the difference between a real 5-year-old and artificial intelligence? Rather, I think of imperfection, clumsiness, naivety, and naturalness that does not need to be coerced. As you can see from the poems, poems written by real children are not contrived. It doesn't have to be, and it wasn't written for that purpose. It just built naturally because she was happy just giving and watering Pinkie and Squash. This naturalness is probably something no machine can imitate.

 ​So, the future I predict will be more focused on things that are more natural, more pure, and more spontaneous. People will increasingly crave something more human. Rather, I wonder if machines are helping and creating a background for this phenomenon.

Recently I changed the old logo to a new one. This was created using Canva in a new and simple form with my signature, title, and homepage address all included.

Most of all, I created them with two options like the below because of alternative purpose. 

Compare to text on the intro page, it looks more simple but clear with strong image.

A logo has characteristics that symbolize and represent a site, person, job, or company. Just as each country has a national flag that symbolizes that country, the company's logo has the same meaning as this national flag.

​In the past, in my case, when I made a logo, it was a fun thing and I didn't put much meaning into it. But as your site grows, just like distributing business cards, you realize how important it is to create your own symbol. In this sense, the changed logo seems to have a good meaning symbolizing me and my site.

  Cézanne is one of my favorite painters. I love looking at his pictures. However, while I like the strong colors, brush marks, gross tasking composition and comfortable feeling of his paintings, there are parts that I want to correct when looking closely at his paintings.

​Where does the light come from in this picture? Why is the desk twisted?

 Is the size and perspective of the fruit correct in this drawing? Also, the bookshelf are desk twisted in the back. He probably didn't use a ruler.

 ​All the apples are drawn perfectly in line. I thought it was a manga to color inside the lines

 ​The kettle is looking at the same height, but the plate is looking down from a high place. Is it one person watching? Or does one person have eyes in multiple directions?

 In this painting, the desk is also distorted, and the view points of the basket and kettle are different.

​Does this picture look any better?

 ​A characteristic of Cézanne's paintings is that the actual size of objects is difficult to predict. The time and season of painting are also difficult to predict.

 ​It also gives the impression that the kettle and the two plates are looking in different directions.

 ​If someone had painted grapes like this one, they would have been told to draw them again.

 ​Why is the wine bottle about to fall?

 But when you look at his paintings, you realize that these flaws are no longer visible. And you will be surprised to find that the picture is more powerful and beautiful because of this imperfection. Can you believe this? He ignored everything about the composition, contrast, and angle of light, and it was beautiful and perfect. There are so many flaws and mistakes that it makes me feel as if they were made into a single piece.

I think that Cézanne's paintings will serve as a good example for those who are frustrated because they are difficult to draw or who give up easily because they have no talent. Looking at his pictures, something seems easy to draw. But if anyone tried to copy his picture, they would be surprised themselves. Because you can see how much he put everything down and painted with a pure heart. It seems that he wanted to know the nature of the paintings and things, so he put down all the recognition, praise, and honor around him and only talked to himself. So when I look at Cézanne's paintings, I always feel that the paintings are difficult.

  Artists advertise their work to the public in a variety of ways. And through the Juried Competition, we also find new opportunities. I am also using this opportunity to promote my work. In some cases, it has become a profitable opportunity for me. In fact, some would argue that artists don't even need these opportunities. The argument is that true artists would rather pay to participate in competitions, win prizes, or give up being known through competitions, and use that money to buy more paint or create their own promotional pamphlets.

 I also think that some of these claims are right and some are wrong. First of all, with this kind of logic, all forms of competitions such as ballet, music, and audition are worthless. However, artists certainly use these opportunities to develop themselves and to look at their level. And also advertise your own work. But you have to look at how commercially these opportunities turn out to be.

  In other words, it is a story that you should not be a victim of the commercial of the competition organizer. More than anything, if you have more than you can afford or are out of your budget, you should reconsider how helpful the competition is to your career.

 And in some cases, even official-looking competitions often have the nature of scams. For example, the judge system or committee are nonexistent(even though they announce that it is an juried competition), an it turned out that it was an equal opportunity for all participants, and after inducing participation in the competition, For example, publishing a book or encouraging them to participate in an exhibition may motivate them to spend more.

 So, blinded by these opportunities, you can rush forward without thinking about your budget. In fact, it is very rare for works to be sold through such competitions. But in my case, I think it's an opportunity when it's officially known, so I apply.

 I recently participated in an online gallery Juried Competition. It was a contest for a solo online exhibition. I paid $35 and applied because I thought it would be an opportunity to expose my work online if I was accepted here.

  And I received an email saying that my work has been selected for a solo exhibition along with a congratulatory message. And because there was a detailed explanation of why it was selected and what aspects were attractive, I think about that part positively. It's because there are more competitions that can't even receive this kind of message depending on the case.

 However, the email I received below indicated an additional fee for a solo exhibition. I had to pay a sum of about $350 for my solo exhibition. But I couldn't tell the difference between displaying my work in this gallery and displaying my work on my site myself. This is because even if I upload my work on an official and famous site, the inflow through that place is lower than expected. Rather, the frequency of viewing my work through my site was higher.

 I sent an e-mail with a question about that part. But I am still not getting an answer. Also, some time later, another employee of the gallery sent me an e-mail encouraging me to participate in a solo. I had to let her know I was already chosen for the solo show. In my opinion, it seems that there is probably not good communication even inside. Anyway, after that, I received a message from her apologizing. Through this, I felt relieved that it was not a scam. And I lost interest in this competition and gave up my expectations for a solo exhibition.

 If this solo exhibition is a purely solo exhibition based on the quality of the work, I think there should be no additional cost. Does offering an extra fee mean that I have to compete to pay this fee? This is the part I still don't understand. It might be better to pay the amount and play solo before the competition.

 It goes without saying that over time and as you build up your work and your domain, a clear philosophy emerges for this kind of competition. Therefore, I think it is more profitable to build and strengthen my site more diligently and immerse myself in the work more.

 ​Of course, to conclude, I'm not saying the above gallery is wrong. As suggested above, I was relieved that this gallery was not a scam. And if I have a wish, I hope that there will be more platforms that support artists' creative activities with minimal payment. And for this, I think there is a need for artists to actively utilize and promote their blogs or sites.