The pleasure of painting
After a busy day, I sit down at my desk. And I write as if I am doing overdue homework. Sometimes blogging doesn't feel like homework. I am happy when I have to upload a lot of stories because I have a lot of daily content. But sometimes, no matter how much I think about it, I can't think of a good topic or content, so there are times when the task of posting on a blog feels like homework. But as a habit every year, I sit down in front of my desk and write again. In the meantime, the world has changed, and now it's time to create a great article with just a few texts. That's the help of artificial intelligence chatGPT.
However, I try not to borrow this perfection of artificial intelligence whenever possible. Because my sincerity is not in it. Writing is communication. My lacking part is also one of communication. Of course, if you borrow artificial intelligence, the delicate expressions that I couldn't express in my writing will gain weight and become more sophisticated, making the sentences easier to read. I often borrow the power of artificial intelligence to relieve readers' frustration and learn good expressions. But this is not the main thing. Because if this happens repeatedly, I will not be sitting at my desk writing like this before I know it.
The same goes for painting. These days, the picture created by artificial intelligence in seconds is more cool and fancy. Many people are amazed and even awed by this mechanical perfection, beauty and novelty. Now, people have a heightened sense of aesthetics, so they don't seem to cheer "wow" recklessly when they see the paintings of artists who draw by hand. In this world, painters like me work harder and worry more.
There are times when you suddenly lose your energy in this world.
But I realized recently after completing a tiny 8 inch painting. That is, I do not paint for others, I paint for myself. A painting that cannot impress me is not real. And I know my skills best. Admiration is very relative. Young children are easily impressed by adult pictures. In their eyes, when they see a picture that an adult draws nicely, they think that they won't be able to copy that picture. However, if you draw based on this relative admiration, you cannot paint the true picture.
Indeed, the true essence of art lies in the personal connection and satisfaction it brings to the artist. When we create art solely for the purpose of impressing others or seeking external validation, we risk diluting our artistic voice and compromising the authenticity of our work.
As an artist, it is crucial to embrace the realization that your creative expression is primarily for yourself. Your artistic journey should be driven by a deep passion, an innate desire to explore your own unique vision and emotions through your chosen medium. True art stems from within, and it is through this introspective exploration that you can create work that is genuine and resonates with your own sensibilities.
The measure of success or admiration in art is indeed subjective and relative. What may impress one person may not necessarily evoke the same response from another. As you rightly mentioned, admiration can be influenced by external factors such as age, experience, and personal taste. Therefore, relying solely on external validation as a barometer of artistic worth can be misleading and limiting.
Instead, focus on cultivating your artistic skills, honing your craft, and pushing the boundaries of your own creativity. Embrace the joy of experimentation and growth, allowing yourself the freedom to express your innermost thoughts and emotions through your art. Paint for yourself, as a means of self-expression and self-discovery.
By staying true to your own artistic vision, you will create work that holds profound meaning and authenticity. This genuine expression has the potential to resonate with others who connect with your artistic voice on a deeper level. Remember, the most powerful art often stems from artists who fearlessly embrace their own unique perspectives, unburdened by the need for external admiration.
So, paint for yourself, celebrate your artistic journey, and let your truest self shine through your creations. In doing so, you will create art that is genuine, impactful, and true to your own artistic spirit.
In this sense, I am asking myself to be more honest in front of my paintings these days, to focus more on myself and to draw without being conscious of others.
Myungja Anna Koh