Painting as a nature
Vacation is a time when I am given a lot of time, but I do not have time to spend only for myself. Nature is dazzlingly beautiful and everyone goes on vacation.
It's a great time to spend precious time with your family. From the point of view of an artist, it is also a period when the time to paint is lost. Spending time with my family and taking care of my children should be withheld from painting and enjoying the natural scenery.
But if I think about it the other way around, nature itself is a large canvas. I admire the picture of nature every day. Even if I can't draw, I might like to finish a painting by chance, but the scenery I see every day quenches my desire to paint for a while.
Being a painter means that every day you fight the desire to paint. When a picture is not drawn as expected, I feel depressed. This is a melancholy based on the desire to paint purely independent of the scenery and weather outside.
When I chose the life of a painter, in other ways I felt a real freedom. Because from the moment I made up my mind and declared myself a painter, I felt that the existence of something I had fought with in my heart was gone. It's because the other self who always told me to take a different path and draw a picture didn't say that anymore. I felt a sense of security as if my self was a perfect match. And I had a desire to become a good artist myself.
However, in the life of painting itself, there are so many things that I have to challenge and overcome. I have to fight the ambiguity that repeats every day. I have to prove myself and constantly improve myself.
And when I find out that it is difficult to actually get time to draw, write, or even read a book, I get very discouraged. But I know it well. There are a lot of people in this environment, and it is the fact that I may still be painting in a good environment.
Therefore, I should always be grateful, look around more, encourage ourselves, and walk again.
Myungja Anna Koh