Like a drawing of a 5-year-old child
I recently painted an apple with watercolor paint. Attempting to draw various and invisible energies is my long-held wish and the path my painting pursues. For me, sometimes drawing an object like an apple can feel boring. However, I drew an apple with the mindset of going back to the beginning. Of course I am teaching my students with this picture and I also needed a model to teach. Anyway, for various reasons, I drew an apple.
Looking back, I drew apples in many ways. I suddenly think of Cézanne, an impressionist painter who wanted to conquer Paris with an apple. While drawing an apple, he thought of the essence of the object's beauty and drew it again. I like the spirit of Cézanne. And I want to follow too. If you spend 10 years repeating anything, you become an expert in that field. However, there are not many people who can do 10 years of endless repetition without giving up. However, Cézanne devoted all his life to this work for 35 years. And in the end, as a fruit of perseverance, he was rewarded with a knowledge of the true nature of matter. His realization helped open up a new genre of art in the form of Cubism. This shows how hard he worked and how much he explored the essence of objects with a pure heart without any other cost.
Like Cézanne, I also want to explore the essence of things. And we know how difficult it can be. It may take longer than expected, and we do not know if we will eventually know the essence. In the end, everything is a fight against oneself.
Maybe that's why painters, especially masters, like children's drawings. I love the innocence of children's drawings, the love and fun of the painting itself, the rich sensibility, originality and spontaneity. If this energy is included in a painting, everyone knows that they feel happy just like looking at a child's drawing. So, painters want to paint like this child's drawing. And I know that only when I paint with the mind of a child like this can I eventually know the essence of painting and art like Cézanne.
Today I received a picture of a 5-year-old student from her parents. The moment I saw the picture, I was fascinated by the lovely rabbit and the beautiful scenery where rabbits were playing. How could a 5-year-old child so perfectly capture and draw the loveliness of rabbits and the beauty of nature? I was amazed at his talent and expressiveness.
And one thing makes me realize how happy this kid must have been while drawing this picture. Children know how to feel happy through drawing. They just enjoy the simplicity of painting itself. As much as the moment they draw, children feel the happiest and most accomplished. I see such scenes often.
When you become an adult, it is difficult to learn or draw because you have the ability to judge well-drawn pictures and nail pictures, just like eating the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. At some point, when you discover or realize that you are not good at drawing, you don't want to draw anymore. And very often, we look at the picture of the person next to me and compare it and suffer. These judgments and comparisons block the opportunity to further develop the painting.
When your heart is suffering like this, just like a child, enjoy painting with a simple mind, be satisfied with your painting, and calmly draw every day without looking back. Perhaps the simple truth may seem difficult to us. That's why painting is an easy yet difficult task.
Myungja Anna Koh