crumpled paper effect
We feel happy when we put on new clothes, write or draw on new paper, and walk on a brand new carpet that we buy without any blemishes. Straight clothes without any wrinkles make the wearer feel full of satisfaction. Your self-esteem will rise automatically, and you will be happy. The same goes for buying a new notebook and writing on the first page. Writing or drawing on the first page becomes tense and exciting when you buy something new. On a new piece of paper, we automatically write carefully and carefully.
Everything new makes us happy and gives a great hope for the beginning. New home, new car, new office, new handbags...
It is not wrinkled, has no stains, and does not wear out. In pursuit of this perfection, we wander around as if hunting. When we see perfect and beautiful people on Instagram, we hit the Like button even though we have nothing to do with them. And we go back to find another idea persons.
Especially, with the development of various social media such as Instagram and SNS, it is now easy to find these perfect beautiful people. Another star who will surpass the cool influencer we saw yesterday pours out every day. Now, the standard for beauty and perfection is raised by itself over the level, and we feel kind of boring about being average people. People have come to realize how valuable it is to be perfectly beautiful. A wonderful person easily earns money, achieves fame, and wins the attention and love of people without much effort.
Seeing this phenomenon, someone tries to imitate them as mentors or idols. They want to buy things like them, get plastic surgery to look beautiful and imitate their actions, footsteps, and life. And if they don't reach that standard, they say you're a loser, incomplete, ruined, and failed. They underestimate them with the idea that they will only get sympathy and help.
So is paper. If the blemish-free, crisp, glossy paper is wrinkled, it is generally thought that it should go into the trash. The crumpled paper does not give a positive image. A lone writer writes, and if he doesn't like what he writes, he crumples it up and throws it under the table. No one will write with great care on crumpled paper. If you see crumpled paper while cleaning, it is natural to put it in the trash. That's why awards and other significant certifications are placed in a frame to keep them from wrinkling like this and watch them. The crump paper means an unfortunate.
But likewise, we do know. Nobody can live life in perfect condition without a single crumple. Life isn't always like a new A4 paper. Sometimes by myself, others, or the environment, it is often torn, stained, or burned to the extent that it cannot return to its original shape.
Everyone knows that nothing is perfect in the world. Brand new items I bought today become old-fashioned items as time goes by. No one can maintain perfection over time. Finding this fact makes us feel depressed. So perhaps it is the strong reason that people are looking for surrogate satisfaction they can't own or experience.
There are also such verses in the Bible.
God created all things and made them beautiful in their seasons, and he has put in man a longing for eternity. (Ecclesiastes 3:10)
I do a lot of meditating on this perfection, especially while painting. And while painting, I discover the beauty of insecure and imperfect things. And I feel more humble and happy.
When drawing, it is challenging to draw perfectly as I intended. How much moisture the brush will have, how thick the paint will be, the temperature of the day, my mood, and the condition of the paper are every variable. Especially in the case of watercolor, that variable becomes unpredictable. The wet on wet technique in watercolor means putting something wet or wet on top of something damp or not yet dry. It can be said that it is a technique to paint on wet paper and spread it naturally. At this time, no one calculates and predicts the wet condition in the picture below like a computer in advance and spreads it. By chance, I captures the beauty of spreading and paints a picture. If it doesn't smear as intended, redraw it.
But it doesn't matter how the wet brush points spread. After what I thought was wrong and bad, it became part of a beautiful piece of work. The imperfectly drawn parts are blended into the picture to form a single harmony. For Starbucks' early logo, did you know that the logo was asymmetrical? The woman in the logo is a siren, the main character of the legend. She drew the Siren face symmetrically in her early days. But oddly enough, people were terrified to see her symmetrical, perfect siren face. So she raised one side short, making it asymmetrical. Then she changed into a friendly and comfortable image.
So are the pictures. Surprisingly, if you look at the works of the masters, you can see that they are asymmetrically twisted, and the front and back do not match at all, but strangely, they are stood out.
I experience countless trials and errors while drawing. I also learn that such imperfections accidentally bring beauty and teach me what is art. This way, I will be freed from the many compulsion to be perfect. Every variable in our life is unpredictable and impossible to design perfectly, but in the end, you know it's going to come together and make a great piece of work.
When I was going through a difficult time, a woman with a beautiful heart told me before. "Anna, you'd think because you do only painting dark colors ruined the painting, but when you look at the drawings later or from a long distance, you will find that the dark colors were only a part of your painting, and without that part, there would be no own works. And someday, furthermore, you'll know that dark colors are art in themselves."
Sometimes I crumpled the paper and draw pictures on it. Then the brush won't run smoothly over it. But it conveys a deep taste in itself. So I call this aspect of self-proclaimed life can be explained by the crumpled paper effect.
In this era of pursuit of perfection, an object that is evaluated as imperfect and worthless has an effect that leads to true and eternal perfection through its deep insight and meditation
I recently read a blog post that explains this crumpled paper effect well. In her essay writing post, she wrote:
We can use our thoughts to shut out the ways other people and society tell us we aren't good enough. Or that we can't. Or shouldn't.
Her genuinely touching remarks are helpful the persons who suffered from self-abuse with the depression about the imperfection.
The new paper may all have the same shape, but just as the crumpled paper has different forms,
It would be nice to acknowledge that it is an art and a work of art in itself and work happily every day.
Myungja Anna Koh
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